pretender

i think i'm losing my pretence.
i've been keeping my calendar full.
and chatting with all sorts of people.
just to keep my mind off her.

i've been filling up my days with
all sorts of activities.
but the truth is..
my heart is ridiculously empty.
void of love and emotions.

its not about the..
i'm thinking of you, i miss you stuff.
its about everything you* took away.

u* took away love and purpose.
and most of it all.. u* took away hope.
my future looks bleak.

this life is now nothing but an act.
an act to support this being.
and i'm tired of acting.